Realization

I'm sitting at work, after being her for 8 hours and going to school then coming back. I'm exhausted and tired but I push on because the company needs me. It is here at work that I have a realization. People around me are in my life for a season. Not everyone is meant to be in my life. There are some people who are meant to be in my life whether I want them to or not. I also realized that I'm more grown up today than I was yesterday. I'm in a relationship that I figured was pretty mature. 5 years is a long time to be with someone, whether you're 21 or 35. Well, the relationship definitely has some tenure but we are still very young. I don't think there's a certain age that is too young for marriage and yadda. However, maturity helps a marriage sustain. I don't believe in divorce. Sure, it's real just not my cup of tea. I also don't want bastard children. Not that there is anything wrong with them but I want my kids to grow up in a two parent home if possible. Anyway, I kind of drifted off. Back to my relationship. I've seen so many changes in him since the beginning. I've been patient and never tried to change him and he's a better man for that. Now I'm facing his ego. Sure, he's attractive but he's no Jon Bon Jovi. It seems his ego has to be stroked and apparently my stroking isn't enough. Don't get me wrong, he's a good boy. He's been faithful (at least that I know of) and he's pretty loving and sweet. He just needs to hear you're sexy about 10 times a day (no not literally). I'm just waiting for him to reach that stage where your wife, you children, and your job become your life. He's young. I'll wait. At least for now. I realized if it's love it works. If not, lesson learned and move on.